I wish I never met you!

I am surprised that I actually feel this way. I never thought that I am capable of this type of anger.

for the first time I wished that I never knew, met and loved someone. Usually I treat them as a part of my past that made me into what I am now, but he is truly an exception.

I almost thought there's something wrong with me, but as Lyna said, "U know what happens when you hurt people? they may begin to love you less and they may forget that they have loved you once."

I guess that applies to me. I am uber tired of loving him and for caring to whatever he thinks about me.

I just wish that I'll never see him again or that he will not try to contact me. Screw the past that we shared together, you never respected me and I will bestow the same treatment.

pleasantries...

while I was searching ways to spill my thoughts once again on this page, I almost felt that a wonderful topic to write on eludes me. NOW I finally settled to make a lasting memory of some special conversations that can hit the cinemas with all its mushiness... :)

this is a fabulous change of pace, I am certainly not hearing those stabbing phrases that i've been dying to avoid for long, Thank God I have finally decided to leave that stage. BUt the happy thought is that life sometimes offer its rewards by providing an almost well-rehersed but very spontaneous lines of hmmm true love...

let me throw some lines just to preserve those smiling moments. :) I admit that I always stiffle a giggle when I hear him babble about how he loves me. very healthy than to be suffocated with all those heartbreaking stories that I kept before.

anyway, enough of the crap and start with the fun. (he almost made me think that he is planning to be BOb Ong the 2nd. LOL!) Here are some of his perfectly delivered lines (I edited some to fit the screen {hehe} but don't fret the meaning is still entirely the same)

• miss na kita OA level!
• Kung cancer ang pagkamiss ko sau... stage 4 na!
• d q maipapangako na d tayo mag-aaway, na lagi akong nasa mood makipag usap pero sure ako na mamahalin kita ng higit pa sa kung paano kita minahal noon. di ko hahayaang maging malungkot ka sa piling ko.
• mas maingat na ako ngaun, d aq papayag na mawala ka ulit katulad dati.
• (me saying we could be friends if it will not work out) his response: Para mu na ring sinabi na ayaw mu ako mawala pero hindi mu ako kayang mahalin. :'(
• ewan ko ba bakit ba ako balik ng balik sayo.
• Kung pagsasamahin ba ang salitang ikaw at ako... magiging tayo?
• adik na ako sau, mas gugustuhin ko pang malulong kesa mawala ka...
• nakakatawa na yung binalewala ko noon, hinahabol habol ko ngaun.

these all came from my h.s love affair that is coming back for me, I am savoring every minute that he expresses his intent and now its up to me to make it work like the first time. I just wish I still had the vigor for that innocent type of love I once gave him.