Wednesday, October 2, 2013

I miss us.




We tied it to lock it but why do I feel trapped?
We were dancing in bliss but why did the music stop?

I miss the way we talk and laugh. We are together but not :(

Thursday, June 13, 2013

GoT fix

Gore is the way to go. Blood is slowly flowing and getting the attention of TV fanatics, forever changing the course of primetime viewing. hehe that's in the US :) ours cannot go into that just yet. gay romance is slowly changing the pace but not gore, at least not yet, I think. 

Going back, needless to day GoT is hubby and I's latest addiction. Love the series and now I am falling in love with the books :) 

waiting for one piece
waiting for TWD's next season and now Game of Thrones. 

*setback of watching a series - you can't just have enough and yet you have to wait loyally for the next.

P.S. The red wedding really broke my heart. I love the Stark family and now there are only a few of them left to love. 

Team Stark and team Daenerys!



Tuesday, February 26, 2013

Motherhood is catharsis

inspired by my blog detailing my cousin's ordeal when she gave birth to Hailee, I thought that its a good idea. Why not put all my experiences into words that Paige might someday read. :)

Catharsis. If I have to describe motherhood in one word, it will definitely be catharsis.

May 1 - all throughout the pregnancy naman, masakit talaga and lagi akong may contractions kaya I had to stop working and stay at home, sacrifice - mother eh :) pero ang May 1 ay bongga. Baka nakiisa si paige sa labor day kaya naglabor kami bigla. Pagdating sa hospital - 1cm pa lang pala. Fail! so what rommel and I did - nagpatagtag we headed to Glorieta for a movie date - Avengers kami napunta instead na sa operating room.

on and off ang pain but still 1cm pa din.

May 6 - nag robinsons naman kami :) with regine, pagpasok pa lang ng mall na feel ko na parang there's water trickling down from my undies. mahina lang pero its so wet. kinabahan kami baka water bag ko na yun so we went to Manila Doctors. true enough, nag leak na ang water bag ko and dapat na ko maadmit. pinaglakad pa din ako kahit sa loob ng OB complex dahil hindi pa ako fully dilated.

May 7 - akala ko this is the day na. the pain is killing me na and they had to sedate me because I became restless with the pain. there are moments when the sedation doesn't seem to work anymore, it's a struggle to sleep and I am not allowed to eat or drink.

May 8 - I am fervently praying that anytime soon I'll deliver Paige na. I am talking to her that its now okay and that she'll be safe, I am actually shouting, pleading for them to proceed with the CS operation but according to the OB's of Madocs they need to justify why it has to be CS. Until finally around 7PM, I reached 8cm so from the labor room, we are now off to the operating room.

8PM - inside the operating room - I am trying to deliver my baby, the contractions are really eratic now and its as if Paige is kicking her way out. Unfortunately, the OB's ruled out the possibility of a normal delivery because Paige cannot fit it in my sipit sipitan - CS din pala ako babagsak :( They have to change the set up of the operating room from normal delivery equipments to Cesarean paraphernalias. They transferred me to a new bed and injected epidural anesthesia until I can no longer feel anything and I just like to sleep.




8:20pm I heard someone shouting The Baby is out, this pulled me out of my reverie and the first word that I uttered was - Asan? and then I heard the most glorious sound ever - Paige's cry :) right after pulling her out of my tummy, they placed her near my breast and then Paige and me had our very first mother-daughter picture even before they clean her :)






latest craze: The Walking Dead

Heard through FB that The Walking Dead series is a good show. I got interested, so I bought the season 1 DVD. It only has 6 episodes, hubby and I didn't even realize that we have finished all 6 because obviously we got hooked.

Hardcore gore and definitely not a family-oriented sort of program where I can bring my 9 month baby during our TV sessions. Now that One Piece is a weekly thing and we are still waiting for the latest episodes to air in Japan before we can have our fill, we had to find new shows that will interest us. Needless, to say Rommel and I are now following TWD. Unfortunately though, it is now also a weekly fare since we have watched the first two seasons and the first half of season 3.

Now, post apocalypse is not a cheerful topic to dwell but it certainly is interesting to amass high ratings in its first few episodes.

Story wise: I can really say that its A+ for imagination, especially when you are always bombarded of the same old plot lines that local channels usually offer (apart from some minimal exceptions). The premise of the story is horror, but now the creepy zombies are just beside the point. It is now about fighting to survive and co-exist with other people while these horrific creatures are threatening you day and night.

I just wish that they didn't have to put a baby in the middle of all this. :(

Fave characters: Daryl and Glen
Characters that I love to HATE: Andrea and Lori

With its mixture of politics, love, family and violence, TWD is surely a must-watch and I am excited to see how the story will develop and end. Will mankind continue to persist or all this drama will be all for nothing?




Friday, February 1, 2013

Paige Updates










Recent photos of my cutie baby :)

Wednesday, January 9, 2013

the year that was and welcoming anew

Great start and a fabulous end.

That's how I could sum up my transition from 2012 to 2013. Life was not easy and I don't think it will be for the days to come, at least it's not boring and its definitely happy :)


  • 2012 was the best. This year I received the ultimate blessing anyone could ever receive and yes I am talking about Paige. She's my life now. She's the reason of my every action, my vitamins, my energy booster. So, this is what they call motherhood. :)
  • new work :) after a difficult pregnancy and hard labor, I am now back to work. My mind is with Paige but her needs prompts me to help hubby in giving her the best so here I am tied in my desk.
  • family - our family of three completes me plus my parents, sisters, parents-in-law and brothers-in-law :)
My Lord, Thanks for all the love and blessings I could never thank and praise you enough. Welcome 2013! I know you will be good to me and my family :)