Reckless Driving... Reckless Loving...

I was on my way to work on a clear Wednesday morning, seeing the usual traffic and feeling the boredom of a seemingly endless journey. I could feel the roughness of the road for everyday my ride is with a reckless driver who doesn’t know how to step on the break. As I was preventing myself to give in to the inertia I saw my scar on my outstretched left arm. It was a painful reminder of a physical injury that I got from a reckless love affair. But more than that it was a lifetime remembrance of my immature TRUE love experience.

the Relevance of music

An open letter…

For Pintig members who has been my extended family for the last seven years…

It has been a pleasure singing and growing with you guys; you are the witnesses of how my life was formed and you served as older brothers and sisters to me since I have none. From the various groups handled by my father, it is only with this group where I was able to sing at my best and perform at my finest

It’s a burden for me to see this group fall apart and as you can gauge with my mother’s reaction she was deeply hurt by your actions. She treated all of you as her own and it pains her to see her children at this situation. But as it seems and please correct me if I am wrong, you take for granted the lengths that my family can do for the choir by not recognizing our leaders point of view. He is our father and our leader, either way he deserve our respect. I know I have not been the perfect daughter to preach this, but I am calling your attention to extend your heart and listen to him, it doesn’t take blood relation to love somebody and after all in one way or another Tatay contributed something in your being either your personality or talent he was there to see to it that we can sing at the top of our lungs and be proud that after the training we are able to flaunt what we have.

Tatay might be stubborn but just say what is truly in your heart and he will truly understand. As what most of you told me when I was falsely in love… in his own innocent way a father is just doing what he knows best for his children.

We were bonded by Music, it let us sing and make our feet dance but what’s truly essential about music is, it can be the voice of what we feel inside predominantly when we are mute by the words of our mouth.

On gaining WEIGHT!

I am surrounded by flabby people and they are recruiting me into their clan, - the food loving citizens. From my skinny figure, I am now transforming into a voluptuous girl (naks!) kidding aside OR honestly speaking I am gaining weight… or as they say it “nagkakalaman na.” Haha! More like the transformation of jennifer LOVe. Much to my horror the Christmas air is adding up to my appetite. But no I will not give in to the temptations.

I have nothing against being fat in fact I love them because they are so huggable but I don’t want to be one. I have been used to being petite but now being sexy and healthy will not hurt either. HAHA! (kapal)

Just to do something out of nothing kaya I wrote this blog.

When you want to make a difference... Subtract

With a straight face you set me free… May baon na ako on my effort to move on. Thanks for giving me the strength to give up. As you said, “ Huwag na nating sirain kung anong meron tayo” and I have come to realize that was right .Yes we lost our chance to be together and to correct our mistakes but it doesn’t matter anymore now. Truly as evidence show we are not meant for each other at least we can be happy that once in our life we met and fell in love but now that the love has gone the memory remains.

FArewElL!

My Most Prized Possessions

I was never materialistic, even simple things can always make me happy. Pero of course may mga bagay na malapit sa puso ko ang iiyak talaga ako kapag nawala sa piling ko. Kababawan pero sumasalamin sa aking pagkatao.

Arranged in random order, these are the things that I treasure most.

*Hunter X Hunter Burned DVD’s, courtesy of Ramnel (downloaded thru the internet)
*Ghost Fighter DVD (Pirated)
*A Ring (bought for me Dec.2004)
*Letters from friends (kept from elementary until now)
*Written Manuscripts from College up to the present
*Harry Potter Books (1,4 and 7)
*If Only (VCD Courtesy of NB2)
*Sidney Sheldon Books
Nothing last Forever
Are you afraid of the Dark

Dumbledore is GAY!

The gay community is welcoming Harry Potter’s mentor Dumbledore in their society.

Admittedly, this news came as a shock to me. Not that I am not welcoming powerful people to be gay, coz I am gay myself (by heart) but to make a children’s book complicated by infusing sexuality issues is I think not suitable for the story. And besides after JK Rowling has written the book she already entrusted the details to our imaginative minds. She only fed us with a world we can unravel. She can’t just add details whenever she wants just to create publicity.

Being gay is not the problem, for gays and lesbians are not lesser persons than any of us. But the outing of Dumbledore is unnecessary for the story.

MY fairy tale has ended.

I just realized I found and lost the true essence of love.
That’s why it was only called a tale it was never bound to happen and just meant to be a story to live by and share.
Endless bickering about a lost love.
A mind full of what if ‘s?
A day occupied by dreams and memories.
No matter how I teach my head to let go, a fragment of my heart is still trapped.
Love is a state of mind and getting on with my life depends upon my ability to forget.
I’ll write a story of you one day, when the clouds that block my sight were lifted by the wind.
When your picture stop playing in my memories.
When I can read your letters without bitterness in my mind.
I love you so much even after a year has passed.
But I hate myself for loving you this much.

Sorry for the person who is trying to catch me but I still refuse to fall.

Someday I’ll be able to hold my heart and…
I hope that someday is now.
I want to be free.

my latest object of affection!

My dear Labrador retriever pero cross breed ito ng hndi ko alam ang ka cross hehe. Given by ate malu and nyl. The best part is we all found it sa Sta. Ana Church and then when me and my sisters hold it we immediately knew that she was meant for us. Buti na lang andun cla to buy the dog for us. Nakita siguro nila ang chemistry between Pillia and us hehe. Yes you read it right the puppy’s name is Pillia, somewhat taken from my name pero actually dahil makulit tlaga. She’s an angel when she arrived sa house nag sanay lang pala sa new home nya, the next day makulit na hehe.

Before we came up with the name Pillia, dumaan muna sa mahabang pilian through various sort of names like Fifi, Penelope, Happee, Pashmina, Mulan, Marimar, Fluffy, Fang, Sharlot and 20 more names pa yata, pata si Labrador naguluhan na. c“,… hehe

my 1st Bike ride.

For the first time last Friday, Oct 12 of 2007, I had my first bicycle ride. Funny but its true I don’t know how to balance a bike till last Friday.

But it was a taste of Nirvana when I finally moved a few meters away from where I started. Without help and guidance I struggled to learn it and now it’s some sort of an achievement for me. Hehe babaw ko! Kahit maraming bruises after, everything was worth the experience.

Sabi nila unhappy childhood daw ako dahil hindi ako marunong mag bike. Absurdly not dahil starting at the age of three marami na din akong activities like ballet lessons, singing engagements sa mga school programs and Chinese Fan Dance unusual than most children but definitely a happy one.

Anime mania

My eyes is tiring out with my pc’s Final Fantasy wallpaper so I decided to browse some pictures of my two most coveted and loved anime’s Yuyu Hakusho (Ghostfighter) and Hunter X Hunter.

During my search I found out that the mangaka or the maker of the two cartoon series was interestingly only one person. Mr. Yoshihiro Togashi of Shonen Jump married to Naoko Takeuchi the maker of Sailor Moon. (Cool couple!) Now I wonder how does he make his anime’s very appealing especially to me.

Hunter and Ghostfighter is almost the same with their interesting group of Protagonist. I like Kurapika in Hunter and Dennis (Kurama) in Ghostfighter they are the silent and genius type among the characters.

Needless to say I’m drawn to these characters and to the story. I have the DVD of Ghostfighter complete edition and is now looking for the complete set of Hunter.(hope someone could help me!) I have the Greed island OVA but I want all the story arcs before I watch it from start to finish. Hehe!

The Lake House

A story about waiting

I had a chance to watch The Lake House starred by Sandra Bullock and Keanu Reeves last Sunday night. It has a mysterious plot. With a wonderful but fictional story of how Love transcends time and distance. In a strange and magical way this movie made waiting for your one true love interestingly difficult. Finding a way to meet that one person who completes you but living two years apart added the sweetest ingredient.

Having someone out there who truly loves you and you feeling the same even if he is on a different dimension is really worth the wait.

The Lake House is the Warner Movies remake of II Mare, a Korean film that means “The Sea” in Italian.

Philippines has it’s own version, entitled “Moments of Love” and there are other Asian counterparts like “Sky Love”.

Latest Reflection

So close yet beyond my reach.


Our elbows are so close and yet we cannot kiss it. I have always been aware of it but only till I got it as a text message bearing words like so close yet beyond my reach that I have given it a total analysis.

Simple presentation yet figuratively the phrase embodies a lot of meaning, especially for me.

I was so close yet I failed to grab it. I was disillusioned and truly hurt. But some things are not meant for us. There are promises that were never bound to happen.

But don’t regret just let go.

Save me.

Beep. I feel like I need to rethink my life. So many wrong turns and I’m confusing not only the persons around me but myself in the first place. With every decision I make there is a risk to hurt somebody. How do I start again so as to gain full control of my life? I think I will explode any second.

All I wanted is to love and be loved. I feel like I’m trapped. Nowhere to go, nowhere to hide.

Harry Potter and the Deathy Hallows

The last installment of the Harry Potter book is truly a magnificent way to finish a journey. It has a carefully planned plot that connects events from the first book to the last. As for me a lover of Harry ever since the saga started, the Deathly Hallows means mourning. It is like losing one of your most loved friends. It is a book that grew within me, more than just Harry’s pretty face his whole life is an exciting piece of literature I would share and read with anybody and everybody. These are the books that I would read as many times as I can. Every terror and every pain that made the book colorful is worth a tear that I don’t mind reading in front of one and all with a tear stained eyes. The unexpected twists and turns left me at the edge of my seat. The revelations are fitting for the finale but were not given away during the first six books. The characters seem to have a life of their own and that JKR christened them each with a unique personality.

My first step into the magical world of wizards and witches was through the Sorcerers Stone Movie, exciting, as it is I got hooked on the film and was determined to see the next. Only after the chamber of secrets motion picture that I got the chance to read the books and as I expected its like eating the other half of the pizza, the movie was just a taste and the book was its entirety.

The book enhanced my already imaginative mind. Opened myself to exciting possibilities and exploring the wonders of love and friendship in an exceptionally magical way. Made me think of how to make my life worth living with every ounce of magic I can extract from my being (my magic refers to love and friendship). The fantasy wizarding world is an effective tool that JKR conveyed the story and the moral behind it explicitly to all her readers.

All in all the book is an experience worth the time, effort and money.