wish granted :)

Maybe Zane gave me the courage to talk about him/her in my last blog because a new baby is already coming. maybe I've been thinking about Zane endlessly because Zane prepared me because he/she will be reborn in a form of a new baby :) 


yes! I am pregnant again - this time I hope everything will be alright. 


Thank you Lord, this is the best birthday gift ever, that means my number 1 wish in my wish list blog already came true. Be it a little phei or a little meng as long as the baby is healthy inside my womb and when he/she comes out - Rommel and I will still be one of the happiest couples around. 


by May of 2012, hopefully I am already a mother of a healthy baby and a mother of a lovely angel named Zane :)


I have to come up with new unisex names :) 

b-day wish list :)

posted three wishes in Facebook, kala ko that's all I want right now, but after realizing that I STILL want more and to continue the tradition, here's my 2011 b-day wish list.

 1. little phei and little meng hehe twins!
 2. Ref! wawa nman kami newlyweds alang ref :)
 3. Percy Jackson Series
 4. White Icing na cake (huhuhu sana meron)
 5. Puto Pao favorite namin ni Zane :)
 6. Sleep! :)
 7. Party :)
 8. Friends :)
 9. Horror movies CD

 ayun lang hehe! Happy birthday to me Thank God for another year.

+Zane

After more than three months of mourning for Zane and celebrating our wedding - it seems I finally have the courage to talk about Zane, our baby that was never born. 


 Rommel and I ALMOST had our bundle of joy. We were happy and afraid at the same time, happy that finally - we will be a family of three, that we will not be jealous of our friends who already have little versions of themselves, and afraid because we know that my parents will be furious at us since we are not yet married.


What a difficult pregnancy it was. There were lots of bleeding, medicines and crying. I think the baby is not properly seeded in my womb that made it weak. But I have to start organizing our wedding which is a very tasking feat - I don't want Zane to be born without a proper marriage for us, so through sweat and blood we have to raise money and come up with a simple yet decent and memorable ceremony for our do. 


 After my second visit to the OB, i was advised to have full bed rest and I am only allowed to stand up if I'll take a bath. I AM EVEN NOT ALLOWED TO ARRANGE MY OWN WEDDING. 


Sadly,  I wasn't able to follow my doctors advice because of many reasons, and it resulted to one of the biggest tragedies in my life - losing someone that I don't have yet. March 16, 2011 - we discovered Zane inside my womb. April 17, 2011 - after an excruciating pain in m tummy - our baby lost its heartbeat. People say Zane is not yet the one meant for me and my husband and for her or his sake we have to continue living and eventually start our own family.

proud :)

I asked our safety riding guru in Suzuki if he could spare some time to teach me how to ride a motorcycle, then he asked me, "marunong ka ba magbisikleta?" and my proud retort was, "Of course I do" :) omitting the fact that I only learned how to ride a bicycle a few months before my wedding. :) excited to take a big leap and learn how to ride a motorcycle naman. :)